Colon Cancer and Me..☻

Colon surgery (colectomy or hemicolectomy)

Procedure or Surgery

Well, my doctor (Oncologist) really has had patience with me through the first stages of this, and he has been a rock. I told him that I trust him, but mostly that I trusted God more. I found him to be pleasant in mannerisms and wanted him to do my surgery. Needlessly to say, I didn’t trust the gastroenterologist( who referred me to my now oncologists), because he scared the wits out of me. I didn’t like the way he came at me with what he had found. He was the one who gave the diagnoses, in which his approach left me with scars in the mind. I was asked the question as of to whom I wanted to do my surgery, and I was giving two choices. It was my second choice that led me to the best oncologist as far as I am concerned. The surgery went well, and it’s something that I ‘ll never forget. The nursing staff was the best yet.

Cancer and Fear!

I don’t have a fear of dying. Actually, it is not something I think about. But what I do have a fear of is doctor’s and their treatments, and I don’t think they really know what these drugs will really do. I don’t have fear, I have an expectation of the God I love and pray to, that He hears my prayers and be there with me. I pray even when I do not realize that I am praying. The gripe with me is that this stuff showed up. Then I remember the “thorn” Paul was annoyed with. And God said to Paul, that His grace was sufficient. I wondered why this had to happen to me, but I stand convicted that God has got this! I go into treatment tomorrow, expecting a “miracle” whether big or small, I expect my Lord to show up. What is FEAR? It’s walking without God. F.alse E.vidence A.ppearing R.eal. so I am choosing to F.ace E.verything A.nd R.ise!! Keeping my head up! You guys do the same. I will have my phone with me, and I get notifications through my email. So post a POSITIVE, and I will return the LOVE.